I laughed at first.
Children say strange things all the time. They mix up words, invent meanings, turn shadows into monsters and clouds into dinosaurs. I thought Will was being silly.
Then I followed his finger.
And saw something on Ellie’s body that I was never supposed to find
The party had seemed like a good idea when I planned it. A backyard celebration, close friends, family, food, music, kids running across the grass. Simple. Warm. Memorable.
In reality, it was chaos.
Someone needed more napkins. Someone wanted to know if the dip had dairy. A child was crying over a toy truck. Another one was trying to feed frosting to the dog.
And in the middle of it all stood Brad.
Forty looked unfairly good on him.
He was laughing near the patio, one hand wrapped around a drink, the other resting casually in his pocket. Even after years of marriage, even after bills and toddler tantrums and forgotten anniversaries, I sometimes still caught myself looking at him and thinking, I’m lucky.
I was so naive.
A blur shot past my legs.
I looked down just in time to see Will sprint under a table with a cake pop in his hand.
“Will,” I called, “we don’t throw cake pops.”
“I wasn’t!” he yelled back, which usually meant he either had or was about to.
Across the yard, Brad was smiling at something Ellie had said.
Ellie.
My best friend since second grade. The girl who knew my childhood secrets, my first heartbreak, my wedding vows, my postpartum tears. She was family in every way except blood.
When she appeared beside me a few minutes later, she touched my arm gently.
“You’re doing too much,” she said.
I laughed. “I always do. You know that.”
“I could’ve helped more before everyone got here.”
“You already did a lot.”
For half a second, I felt grateful she was there.
Then Will crawled out from under a tablecloth looking like he had been raised by cheerful raccoons.
His knees were stained with grass, his hands were filthy, and chocolate was smeared near his mouth.
“Oh my God,” I said, catching him by the wrist. “Come here.”
“Mommy, no!”
“We are not cutting cake with you looking like this.”
“But I’m playing.”
“You can play after. Come on.”
I led him inside, sat him on a chair by the kitchen sink, and scrubbed his sticky hands while he grinned up at me.
“What’s so funny?” I asked.
His eyes were bright, cheeks pink from running.
